hello to whoever may read this,
my name is karl, i am a 43y/o male in florida. i will post a picture when i can get one on this computer, i will update this as days go by, typing has never been my forte (nor spelling or often grammar for that matter) and the recent accident which has now pushed me into terror (for reasons i will attempt to explain) is severing the larger common tendon of my left hand, typing is now slow, please forgive me.
my situation where a repairable accident causes such anxiety and terror invades my sleep (when i can get it) is by most my fault for poor decisions, yet my decisions were made with a brain no longer tolerant to some things in the modern work world.
to the point i have been unemployed for nearly one year (i quit my last job, hostile work environment {i was even threatened physically by a coworker, managment did nothing, i quit when a 2 week run of insomnia followed by penumonia was met with a "make a decision, we need you back at work and 120%" phone conversation with a manager led me to quit, no job lined up no notice, but i was still hacking my lung out {yeah my left lung is basically been nonfunctional, phrenic nerve damage and atalexisis do that} well after i quit the above noted individual who threatened me and one other person which i was witness to and reported was fired and another demeaning and verbally hostil individual transfered to a facility where moving would be a better option for them)
so unemployed, moved back to where i Thought i could find ANY job so i could go back to school for a different career, no one even calls my references, i cashed out my only retirement fund to pay bills accrued on credit to keep my mom in the best nursing home i have ever seen (tahts a medicaid issue when a resident is hospitalized over 7days only hospital is paid, nursing home is self pay and over 8 years between mom and then dad, one can drop 6k in a one month bed hold payment)......no job , no family, backup money spent, credit now full again maintaining cobra health ins and bills, one lung, cervicle fusion, think i might get a job soon and now my left hand tendons severed, who will hire someone scheduled for surg, 3months to heal, and how will i pay the copay and all the bills of life and the credit card bills i have ammased, must stop typing, oh before i go PTSD and anxiety disorder in my life for 8yrs, i cant see how i will find any future after surgery other than homeless as it seems the friends i Had are not returning any calls...no family, no friends, no money, in debt and in pain, my jobs the past 15yrs involved helping others in an allied medical field and i was also a teacher...ive helped others, where do i go when no one can or will help me??
karl
